Ugh, and now the cycle of humiliation was complete. Did he really have to revisit the moment he'd come to his realization? But he'd said that Snake deserved to know, so...

"After I -- " After he made out with Snake? Yeah, like he was going to say that. "...After the grey room, I guess. I mean, it must have started a lot sooner, but after that, I started thinking, and..."

His face felt like it was burning; he looked away even though of course Snake couldn't even see him. "I guess that's when I finally realized."