So I hurt you anyway, despite my best intentions. *A sigh.* Sometimes we fail no matter what we do.
Well. Consider how I was feeling and then you told me how old you were. That made me feel a thousand times worse. I don't know what the law is in your country but where I suspect I'm from, it's pretty damn strict about relationships with people who aren't legal adults. Namely, you don't or you're viewed as a criminal and sexual predator.
I understand that it's because of the stupid game we're in we had to share that experience but it set off a whole lot of paranoid thought in my head. Was I really into the underaged? Did I have some evil tendencies that I didn't remember? At that point, the only thing that made sense was to get as drunk as possible.
Of course, my good sense came to me while I was hungover and I knew I wasn't any of those things. But then I knew I'd have to figure out what to do. My plan was to regain iron control over everything and be your friend but...just keep you at a distance at the same time.
Except you told me that you liked me. And now here we are. *With that, he'd finally told everything. He gave a really long sigh and rested his head against Heiji's shoulder. He felt weak with relief and the heavy weight he'd been carrying started to vanish.*
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Well. Consider how I was feeling and then you told me how old you were. That made me feel a thousand times worse. I don't know what the law is in your country but where I suspect I'm from, it's pretty damn strict about relationships with people who aren't legal adults. Namely, you don't or you're viewed as a criminal and sexual predator.
I understand that it's because of the stupid game we're in we had to share that experience but it set off a whole lot of paranoid thought in my head. Was I really into the underaged? Did I have some evil tendencies that I didn't remember? At that point, the only thing that made sense was to get as drunk as possible.
Of course, my good sense came to me while I was hungover and I knew I wasn't any of those things. But then I knew I'd have to figure out what to do. My plan was to regain iron control over everything and be your friend but...just keep you at a distance at the same time.
Except you told me that you liked me. And now here we are. *With that, he'd finally told everything. He gave a really long sigh and rested his head against Heiji's shoulder. He felt weak with relief and the heavy weight he'd been carrying started to vanish.*