I can be both, you know. [sort of teasing but yeah this is a bit too serious for that, he takes a moment to collect his thoughts before saying:]
I know I must come off as naive but I do think about what I'm doing. If we both gave seven or eight BP we'd be down to eleven and ten respectively. It's a loss, of course, but it's not below nine and frankly my only concern would be leaving Jake without someone to get medical supplies for him should his injuries get worse.
... I don't want to make this about owing you, though I really do. You really are my friend, Ema, losing you to some... some infection or illness, that's- [he glances down] Maybe I'm just selfish and don't want to have to rib that prat Jake alone, or stop hearing about ridiculous things like prison wine or new and steadily more ridiculous ways I should change my fashion sense.
[he never shuts up. he glances up to her almost nervously.] Just once, accept my help here?
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I know I must come off as naive but I do think about what I'm doing. If we both gave seven or eight BP we'd be down to eleven and ten respectively. It's a loss, of course, but it's not below nine and frankly my only concern would be leaving Jake without someone to get medical supplies for him should his injuries get worse.
... I don't want to make this about owing you, though I really do. You really are my friend, Ema, losing you to some... some infection or illness, that's- [he glances down] Maybe I'm just selfish and don't want to have to rib that prat Jake alone, or stop hearing about ridiculous things like prison wine or new and steadily more ridiculous ways I should change my fashion sense.
[he never shuts up. he glances up to her almost nervously.] Just once, accept my help here?